Just Sitting Around

Blogged on Saturday, July 5th, 2008 by Rachael. Filed in Blog365, Essays, Family, Philosophical, pregnant!.

Wow, guys. This whole working less, being a Mom more, washing the dishes more (AUGH), and so on… this is really a big lifestyle change for me.  I’ve been working Mom since husband number one left, six years ago, with a short stint as stay-at-home not-working Mom while I was pregnant with Ian.  It’s been my responsibility for almost six years to provide for my family, to keep food on the table, clothes on little backs, and gas in the car.

I can hardly get my mind around the fact that I am now in a position where I share this responsibility equally - less than equally, really, because Troy’s carrying the brunt of the work now.  I can’t work as much as I’d like to, for reasons of making a human being inside my body (ELEVEN WEEKS, guys!  ELEVEN weeks along! SQUEE!), but the small amount of time I do have to work, it’s a joy.  It was a joy anyway, but now it’s a free-of-stress joy, because it no longer rests on me to make sure the rent gets paid.

I can’t even describe how freaking wonderful it is to know that my husband loves me enough to work his butt off day after day, because it’s EXACTLY the way the I feel about him and the kids, and I did work my butt off (in fact I lost over ten pounds working last summer because of all the walking due to NOT HAVING A CAR), and just knowing that someone loves me just as much as I love them, and maybe even more, is astounding.  I can’t wrap my mind around it.  I can’t understand it.  I have no idea how I got to be this blessed.

So, really, I’m not just sitting around, as my goofy title would have you believe.  I’m washing dishes and folding laundry and taking kids on trips to the grocery store and the park.  I’m taking care of my pregnant self by taking it easy, and I’m working some.  And I’m desperately hoping that I never take any of this for granted.